Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Thoughts on Motherhood

It's almost my birthday, and already I'm thinking about how fast time flies. It seemed like yesterday when I gave birth to my eldest boy; and then the youngest. The years have gone by in a flash, and now they're growing up to be fine, young boys. When they were toddlers, I wish I took the time to appreciate them. Back then, it all seemed hectic, tiring, and overwhelming to take care of the kids. I really didn't see how lucky I was to cherish the innocence, beauty and wonderment that childhood so often brings. If only I had more help, I believe I wouldn't have felt so exhausted and resentful. Nowadays, I see how very important it is to cherish the precious time I have with my children. I slow down from my busy schedule, and take more of their questions, or help them with a problem. We're trying to do more outdoor activities with them whether it's going tobogganing, or camping. It's all about spending time as a family too. What we do, what I do makes a lasting impression on them. I respect them as individuals, and I see my kids differently - A.R. is very smart, and talented; funny too. J.P is sweet, loving, and always thinking of others. Their teachers tell us they are well-behaved and lovely boys, and that makes us so proud of them. I feel like motherhood has opened a whole new world for me; it's true about having mother's intuition and that parenting is the hardest job in the world. I feel like being a mother is the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I know there is a long way to go, but it feels like I'm on the right track. For once in my life, I feel like I'm actually doing something good, and that makes my birthday all the more sweeter.